Welcome back to My Cheerful Post. A place to share cheerful moments which have made us smile during the week. In times where it seems impossible, it can be helpful to find something, no matter how small that moment is. Here is week 27.
This week, I have been hit yet again with another cold, pains, and tiredness – just feeling pretty shitty if I am honest. I am getting pretty fed up with virtually having no energy to do anything. The youngest doesn’t sleep particularly well; she has never slept through the night. I guess it takes its toll. It wasn’t until I had the baby loss group that someone suggested that maybe it is my body reacting to the time of year. I am keeping myself busy, more so than other years – not intentional, at least I don’t think. Maybe it is. This time of year is bloody shitty, while I share old photos an reminders and try to be upbeat about it; maybe protecting my listeners – I don’t know. But I do feel shitty, and it does bloody hurt knowing that this time six years ago I wasn’t a bereaved mum.
On the first Tuesday of each month is our lovely pregnancy and infant loss support group; this week it was exactly that. It is such a lovely, supportive group; it is definitely a space I need right now. One of the members brought the group a candle plate with daffodils on, and she brought me a daffodil tea light holder, they are absolutely beautiful. Our local florist also dropped in a little surprise, left us some tiny daffodils for each member to take home as it is nearing Mother’s Day – really thoughtful.
A couple of weeks ago there was a post by a UK charity on Facebook about loss. I commented about the lack of resources there are for babies who live and then die. I was then left an email; so I took the plunge and wrote an email, just to share a bit of our experience in the hope they could use it to pass it on. The first reply was for me to help tweak their information about our type of loss; which I felt so pleased about. As if that wasn’t enough I was then passed on to someone else, who wants to do more – which has lead me to be invited to London to help further with a baby loss project they are putting together.
It has been such an exciting thing, and I feel like I am being properly listened to about changing the way support and resources are issued; all will be revealed in due course.
I have had such a wonderful day, it is always bittersweet being minus a daughter – I am so showered with love I haven’t been able to think too much today. A trip to Bristol and of course their huge Primark! Best shop – ever!
My gifts from my lovely family are…
A Mini Pukka Pad
A large amount of sticky notes
Reflection book – What if Mulan had to travel to the Underworld
A Wand pen
The Greatest Showman Soundtrack
You’re never weird on the internet book by Felicia Day
A pedal machine
Several cards, including handmade ones
Finally a keyring with our youngest daughter’s thumb print in it – so bloody cute!!
Hope your days have been kind.